by Amma

Nama Om Vishnu Padaya Krishna Presthaya Bhutale
Srimate Gour Govinda Swami iti Namine!

Srila Gurudeva today is Your transcendental appearance day, today we should only talk about You however, I find it difficult to say anything without mentioning myself first as You are the one who saved me from this miserable life i was leading. If I do not mention my conditions that I was living in and how You saved me then how will anyone know Your Divine Grace’s Greatness.

Srila Gurudeva, before I met You, I was an orphan and had to endure very difficult life, I became widow at a young age with three children to take care of. One fortunate day i met Your Transcendental Self and I felt inner happiness and blissfulness that I never felt before, you drove out the darkness that was enveloping me. Just as the pastime of tribal woman Sabari Mata in Sri Ramayana who by serving Maharishi Sri Matang and eating his divine remnants got the mercy to see and serve Lord Rama. Same way, Srila Gurudeva after meeting You, serving You, cooking for You in Delhi after you come back to India from a long international flights I served you and later honored Your transcendental mahaprasada that changed my whole life. Doors for my spiritual upliftment opened up after meeting Your Divine Self, the holy places which i only heard of and was considered dream i was able to visit them by Your divine mercy. I no longer feel destitute, helpless rather now i realized You are my only father, mother, friend and everything. Since, I met You my life’s path always went towards serving Lord Jagannatha and Your divine self. Whenever i was in difficulty i learned only one thing that calling You for help is the best thing I ever learned. During difficult times Srila Gurudeva You helped me to fulfill all my family obligation and gradually guided me towards Your divine lotus feet. i am 70 years old even in this old age You have given me strength to serve Lord Jagannatha and Sri Gopal, visit Sri Vrindavan Dham, Sri Mayapur Dham, Sri Jagannatha Puri Dham, Sri Bhuvaneshwar Dham, Sri Gadei Giri Dham, Sri Balaji and many other holy places and attend the transcendental Ratha Yatra of Lord Jagannatha. Srila Gurudeva, I am so grateful to Your divine self that my only prayer that You always keep Your merciful glance towards me and whenever I leave this age old body, please allow me to be with You and serve Your Divine Grace.

your kamala charan dasi
Ponnammal Vasudevan
New Delhi, India

Srila Gurudeva ki Jaya!